So, I've been back for a few weeks now and I'm being crushed under the weight of my new ToDraw list. I barely have time to draw anything and I finally realised why : I need to sharpen my skills,and fast because I plan to post a crapload of deviation for the 24/12. Ya know, gifts and all. So I'm putting everything on a hold for 2 weeks. I'm going to sketch like hell everyday and prepare for what comes next. I'll do at least 5 pages a day, and I'll post the last one here so I can access it at work and anywhere I can connect to the internet. I hope it's a sound plan cuz I'm freaking doing it. I know it'll be only sketches but anyone who happens to stumble on them is more than welcome to criticize like there's no tomorrow, I'll take it, I need it. I just posted one page on my scrapbook, feel free to go take a look
Thanks for you attention, that'll be all ^^










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"It Is Better to Reign in Hell Than to Serve In Heaven" John Milton, Paradise Lost
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So, actually, thank you
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nyaaa?~
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Ryuko DragonHalf
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Proudly Admitted Jesus Freak, Hopeless Romantic, and Sonamy Junkie, Now and Forever
"One of these days, God's gonna use you... but until He does, take this pill." ~ Mark Lowry's parents
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There's something really comfortable in the way you write, and hey, we almost share a birthday, mine is at February 7! I'd love so much to friend you here, but only if it's ok. I see your works and comments here are from 2009 or so. Maybe you are not comfortable with DA and don't spend a lot of time here? Is everything ok?
Again, thank you very very much!
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"What's the matter? A girl who can stand up to a giant troll is afraid of some dumb eighth grader?"
I'm very glad my comments had that effect. It's always great to know I've made someone happy. And ... no, everything is definitely not okay. I came on this site at first to draw for one person, because she needed it. And I know it's weird to come here to show my drawing to just one person but ... felt right at the time. When I discovered all the other artists, it was great. All this talent everywhere, is was marvellous to just get there and look for new stuff. I loved it. Then something bad in my personal life happened and I stopped coming for almost a year. Then I came back, better, wanting to stay more than ever. But then something else happened and I just could draw anymore. It's probably stupid cuz everyone kept telling me it wasn't that bad, that I should just get over it, but it crushed me more than anything ever did. It feels like I've just been running ever since. I didn't see those last two years passing. I think I was waiting for something, trying to just find a stable job, get my apartment as soon as possible and just start something. I though about coming back here, but I was feeling ... not unworthy but something similar. I wanted to wait until I got better. But now I think it doesn't work like that. I doubt I'll ever feel any better than I do right now.
Now all of that seems pretty bad, I sound emo or something and I don't want that. Some days I feel like crap. I know I wake up tired every morning, and some days I just wonder why I keep going. Fortunately I remember what keeps me going about one hour after waking up. I'm drawing it right now and I'll post it when I'm done. You're gonna think it's weird when you see it. Yes, I'm gonna post something. I'm tired of just waiting. It's gonna be rough but it's the best I can do right now. So anyway, some days I think it sucks that I have so many crap thrown at me and that I just have to deal with it. Some days it feels great, I know life is just struggling and I love it. The bad days just happen more often.
So I didn't have a problem with DA, I'm just bad at living I guess XD. But screw that, doesn't matter if I'm bad, I once felt ecstatic coming here every day and posting stuff, I want that again. So I'm gonna post things again, it doesn't matter if it's not good, I'll just have to get better with time.
You thanked me before, but you don't have to, somehow you kicked my ass into coming back here. Thank you.
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